Jungle Gym

New Year, real change.

It’s my first post on this username, I have another one but I ended up not even looking at it because people I know were on it and I couldn’t be honest. So it’s take 2 and i’m ready this time.

New Year has been tough already with school starting, not ready to give up going to bed at 4am and walking up at 2pm, sleeping by day and hanging with friends by night. Im forever counting down the days til the next break. Its a big problem of mine, always having my head set to the future and not living where I am in the present. But whats life without looking forward to things :).

I want to follow through with new years  resolutions.

SO BAD.

I want to lose weight. Same reasons as everyone else, naturally. I want to feel damn good, and I want people (ecspecially hot guys…black guys ;) ) to look at me and say “Oh hot damn..I want to be with that”…or something to the extent ;). I’m sick of taking those sideways pictures to hide the fat….I want to ee able to face the camera full on and beautiful. I’ve never had a boyfriend, i’ve kissed and had things  with guys but only with strangers…I lack the confidence needed to believe someone can like me. My challenge starts now. I’m 164lbs 5ft 5in and I would like to be 130.

I’ve been thinking about this everyday but i’ve been lacking in time and serious motivation. The biggest Loser tonight has brought me here…my new show obsession. 1. because it’s extremely motivating and inspirational 2.its life changing to deserving people 3. i’m obsessed with the trainer Dolvett….he’s sexy. If only I could get him as my personal trainer….

along with looking hot, I must find my chocolate man. How do white girls get black men? I need help. I am obsessed.